me against the world.

2010-09-05T00:11:00.001-07:00

IT HAS BEEN AN EXHAUSTING WEEK.

Its been intensive revision for the most part, imagine....rushing through 3 years of studies. Torture isn't it? I shall be studying my arse off for the next few days. While you guys worry over exams which start next month, our N levels officially start this monday (: You can tell our batch is all about slacking, yes we seriously got a problem here.

shut up (: we're awesome too

2010-09-03T06:42:00.000-07:00

#nowplaying - High School Never Ends (Bowling for Soup)

Sometimes i wonder why does my class have to be so different from the others. Why don't we have the same bond, same kind of unity or teamwork other classes share?

We are outspoken, incredibly lazy and lacking of teamwork. (ironic as it seems, our name is 4Teamwork2) the only 'teamwork' we got is everyone ditching the last period every

wednesday. You get the picture, we're the worst class ;p

BUT you know what, i'd never trade places.

-Sure i'd go to other classes and get adopted, (i happen to like mixing around.)

-Sure i don't sing praises about my very own class, i'm not much of a fan.

-Sure they got my hands full, me being the class chairman.

-Sure i can get pissed at them for almost everything, (i can make a list.)

BUT THIS IS MY CLASS. NO MATTER WHAT I SAY/OR SAID. ITS STILL MY CLASS.

and i'm not wiling to trade any of it. You could say i'm not exactly OK with how things worked out, but i'm not disappointed either. I know i complained before, but honestly if you don't count the negative parts, I was already contented with whatever i got. Other classes and their 'bond-that-always-seemed-to-be-up-in-our-faces' happened to make me selfish and crave for more.

We don't need videos, class outings, bonding sessions or whatever the other classes got. Don't get me wrong but i'd love to have those. (Please, who wouldn't?) But we're just not that kind of class. I've finally come to realize and accept that. And to me, it doesn't really matter now. It all comes down to the end and how you make of it, will you regret? or cherish and make the most of everything you got.?

I choose option two.

2010-08-29T10:37:00.000-07:00

"Around the age of 16, 17, or 18, maybe even a little younger, people start asking us, Where do you want to go to college? What do you want to do? They are curious about our plans for the future, and sometimes genuinely interested in providing guidance.

But at the same age, when we say we love someone, we’re often told, No you don’t. You’re too young. You don’t know what you want.

We’ve been dealing with people longer than we have been in school or have been researching professions. I think it’s more than possible that we’d know what we want in a person as much or more so than what we want to do professionally at this point in time." - (fyeahlove) (http://spbaybee.tumblr.com/)

2010-08-19T02:27:00.000-07:00

2010-08-10T09:39:00.000-07:00

"I am going away for a while, I'll be back don't try and follow me.

I'll return as soon as possible, See I'm tryin' to find my place.

It might not be here where I feel safe.

We all learn to make mistakes."

2010-08-09T06:25:00.000-07:00

i'm in a blogging/ranting mood today.

Ok so heres the thing about me when i happen to rant: all the words i plan to say in my head just never come out right when i put it in words/print/or paper. To summarize it, I have this 'condition' where i simply can't express myself properly. Thus theres me babbling, me stammering, me zoning out, or worse: not saying anything at all.

i was going to write about my boring, (yet eventful) weekend but this is needed.

THIS IS GOING OUT TO ALL GIRLS,

who say their not beautiful,

who claims they're stupid,

who feels invisible,

who are lonely,

who believe that they're not good enough,

who are at the their breaking point,

who spend their nights crying,

who are just hurting,

do not, DO NOT, waste your tears, your late nights and most importantly don't waste yourselves away thinking this. And don't tell me i have no right to say this, because i've been through it. And I assume almost everyone will. We all have our different story, but we all hurt just as much. And although we can't judge because we won't know what you've been though....The only way to get through this is to know that you aren't alone.

"When you feel unaccepted, you don't see all the people in the world who

accept you for you are, you only see the one person who doesn't."

-you are beautiful because there are (and always be people) who will think so,

-you are smart enough because you are aware of the consequences,

-you are invisible to one person but fail to see the ones who care about you,

-you feel lonely, but you don't see the people who were beside you all along,

most importantly, you are strong. Strong for risking it, strong for putting your heart on the line when you already know the consequences, and strong for bearing all this shit. To everyone who happens to be hurting, whatever you story is. YOU ARE STRONG TO OVERCOME IT. Believe that whatever happens for a reason, and dream hoping that a better day will eventually come. God would never bear you with something you won't be able to overcome, and he won't bear you with something beyond your limitations.

remember that you aren't alone,

whats worth fighting for and worth these tears are

the people who care about you.

2010-08-08T06:23:00.000-07:00

31st July 2010

2010-07-31T06:27:00.000-07:00

"i declare saturday, slacking day!"

oh how very true. i've been spending the entire day slacking, or 'lepak-ing' as we call it. oh i had plans alright, what kind of deprived person do you think i am? psh. but i couldn't really be bothered to leave the house today, and most importantly i had no cash, oh the irony. plus, i never wanted to catch Inception as much as i wanted to watch the others such as Prince of Persia, Toys Story 3 and Despicable Me. And all turned out to meet my expectations by the way.

but i wouldn't trade today for anything (: something amazing happened on this day, and i would relive every moment if i could. never thought i could be this happy and full of hope that i could feel as if i were invincible to the world, trust me its been quite awhile.

"Well, love is a gift, a lot of people don't remember that. So, you two

better brace yourselves for a whole lotta ugly comin' at you from

a never ending parade of stupid." (Hairspray)

Hey you, i hope you're ready for this. So brace yourself and hold on tight for the ride. With all these hopes i have now make me feel as if i'm up for anything. And that anythings possible.

"this is real, so take a chance and don't ever look back"

2010-07-30T19:50:00.000-07:00

i'm not exactly 'back' if you put it that way. lets just say i missed blogging. Tumblrs basicly for pictures, quotes and inspirations when you don't exaclty have the right words to express yourself. So i'm going to drop by here once in a while when pictures just aren't enough.

One good bonus about my long absence is that once your blog goes dead, people stop viewing it. Thats a good thing too because my posts here were really never meant for anyone but me, but setting my blog on private will be too much of a hassle and i could'nt be bothered.

Things never change, and usual i'm still ever as lazy (: i'm still the same pat with issues about her height or being the class chairman or ranting about randomosity. Looking through my archives however (from 2008 - 2010) my posts have gotten less hyper, and rant-ish. Yeap that was me before, hyper all over the keyboard and always complaining about something.

Alot has changed. And i really do mean alot. Surviving whats probably the last year of secondary school, new acquaintances, getting closer to people you never expected to be, lost friendships, new friendships, lost relationships, new relationships, people changing, while some just never change, moving out, moving on. Life is definitely one heck of a ride don't you agree.

i can't promise myself that i'll be dropping by on a daily basis (fun fact: i never keep to my promises, tsk silly me) but i still will come and in my part nothing much has changed, i'm still hyper as ever, i still complain alot, and i still obsess over the weirdest things. Though posts here will less likely to be hyper but rather draggy like this. Its for my sake, in hopes to keep me sane.

2010-07-23T07:33:00.000-07:00

they don't know how much we're fighting.

life is getting on my nerves i swear.

i wish time stood still before it gets in the way.

what am i doing with my life?

one day, we'll show the whole world.

2010-06-24T08:03:00.001-07:00

my crazy dream? the time where we'll be able to say this to each other:

"Guess we made it this far. Guess we're doing alright.
Looks like we made it out alive. Yeah we made our mistakes,
but we followed our hearts.Even though we drift apart.
For always, forever"

The Story Left Untold by Every Avenue

2010-06-22T06:34:00.000-07:00

is it right, to sit and watch this die?

we're slowly letting go, like it's better left alone

so we erase the damages we've made

the story left untold is better than you know

i'm sorry,

for being ignorant, hoping things will fix itself.

for not always having the right words to say.

for not saying whats needed to be said.

for dragging things.

for not being brave enough.

for making things complicated.

for forever keeping it quiet.

i just want you to know, (if you still happen to be reading this.)

even though i don't show it, i still care for you.

forever and always.

The Story Left Untold by Every Avenue

2010-06-21T21:08:00.000-07:00

everything you own
in a suitcase by the door
the words to keep you home are failing
everything we take out in anger
eventually will break down to answers?
that are ringing in my head
slow down, take a deep breath
we can't give up tonight

is it right, to sit and watch this die?
we're slowly letting go, like it's better left alone
so we erase the damages we've made
the story left untold is better than you know
(is better than you know)

of all the nights we spent wrapped in blankets
the mattress on the floor, we now hold sacred
you are my best friend
slow down, take a deep breath
we can't give up tonight

is it right, to sit and watch this die?
we're slowly letting go, like it's better left alone
so we erase the dameges we've made
the story left untold is better than you know

so much more to say suspended in the air
between the truth that writes and plays (?),
spilling over everything
before you slip away, before you slip away from me
slow down

is it right, to sit and watch this die?
we're slowly letting go, like it's better left alone
so we erase the damages we've made
the story left untold is better than you know

2010-06-20T22:21:00.000-07:00

an orange is a fruit and a tomato is a veggie and i am a stork.

toh-may-toe, toh-mah-toe. po-tay-to, po-tah-to...

GOD, I FEEL SO RESTLESS RIGHT NAO.

my mind goes haywire after a rough sleep,

and nothing seems to keep me sane.

and oh dear, school starts in a week and

i bet they cant wait to claim us back. for my case,

i'm screwed :D

though its safe to say...

its been a good month/break

the cc team, my sweet 16th, the trainings,

retreat, going out, staying out late,

staying up late and just

recently yet another camp.

AND THE BEEEST PART OF ALL:

i have'nt touched a single piece of holiday hw

and only attended one out of ten(?)

holiday classes this month.

oh hell yes, i'm screwed.

something to probe about

2010-06-17T18:59:00.000-07:00

I’ve noticed a lot of people saying lately, on here and in the real world, that “some relationships aren’t worth it”. I completely disagree. Personally, I think that every relationship is worth SOMETHING. Granted, it may not be a fairytale story where everything is perfect and it probably won’t last forever, but I think it’s worth the experience. To HAVE experience is worth something. It’s something to learn from, you can’t know what you want until you’ve figured out what you don’t want. I just think that even the 4 day relationships are just as important as the 4 month or 4 year relationships, because they’re worth something. Everything in life is worth something, and when it comes to love, every experience is important.

I don’t expect many people to agree with me on this, but I felt like I should just share my opinion and get people thinking.

by erinsaysherro

Reply: I used to believe that too. A part of me still does. However, things have changed...Although, for the most part, I think that what you are saying is true. Experience is needed, and just because a relationship didn’t last, doesn’t mean it was a waste of time.

(via fyeahlove)

2010-06-17T04:24:00.000-07:00

you should know well by now, that...

i'm someone who never had the right thing to say,

and i don't enjoy getting involved (or getting people involved)

in situations, i'd rather keep it in than let it all out.

i'm sorry. honestly, i have no idea with whats

happening, or whats going to happen.

for now, i'm letting it all unwind.

waiting to see where this'll leads us.

"sometimes, words aren't needed. just actions."

blessed

2010-06-13T21:39:00.000-07:00

hullo, im back. oh wow how long has it been.

other than that totally random june 12 post.

SOO.MUCH.HAS.HAPPENED.

NC16, the CC teams visit, retreats, trainings,

sleepovers and pulling off an all-night-er.

i truly feel blessed. june seems like a good month after all.

But cmon people theres always mytumblr/twitter there

for you to figure out whats been happening.

(lol, encouraging you to stalk me.)

Just recently, we had the long awaited reunion between

this group of people who hasnt seen each other

in ages. I swear we were hyper the entire night,

and its all Shane's and pat.n's doing!

We did whatever girls do in a normal sleepover,

painting nails (i haz glee nails), gossip, retarded videos

and webcaming. Ah, i missed these people oh-so-much <3

They crashed at 4am-ish however which left me alone

to watch movies, and waited with him till the sun came up.

i died the next day. lol jk.

you try pulling an all-nighter and see if you can survive

the day after, i sure did. In fact i still had enough

energy saved up to hang out with denise

at Clarke Quay for a flea market (y)

tsk, in your face pat.n (: haha! jk

i tell you, i haz luggage in my eyebags. these late night

are turning into my usual routine <3

2010-06-12T09:49:00.000-07:00

dear you,

sorry to be a bother but i am in need for

my daily dose of your assurance again.

2010-05-24T22:31:00.000-07:00

the heck with the future or the problems we might face.

you're helping me focus on now, nothing else matters.

if i could see the future and how this plays out,

i bet its better than where we are now.

2010-05-18T01:19:00.000-07:00

flirt: wow, soo handsome! killer smile <3

GF: ...

BF: *smiles more at the flirt*

flirt: *blushes* why are you smiling at me? (:

BF: eh, because you said i have a killer smile.

GF: T.T

BF: thats why im gonna kill you now (:

HAHA! i love the fact that the gf was literally dying

when her guy responded to the flirt's flattery, and then he

totally turned the situation the other way around and shot

back the comment to that flirt. (y)

2010-05-18T01:16:00.000-07:00

"I know that we won’t ever really be close again, and that hurts more than you know. But all I can really ask for right now is for you to be a decent person. Maybe even a decent friend. Because I need something, anything. I just need some ounce of hope that things will look up again for us, that we haven’t lost anything. Because right now, all I have are memories, which hurt to remember, knowing I won’t ever have them back. I wonder if you know how much this hurts for me, to go each day without you, to see you not care. And there are moments, when I think that maybe this day will be different, and maybe things are turning around, but those are just moments that fade away quickly. And I know that in the long run that you’ll never be here. You will never be here for me again and that hurts because no matter what, I have and will always be there for you."

—
(via kaitlynnicolelove) (via ciaosophie, fearlessfight) (via kylfth)

2010-05-11T23:56:00.000-07:00

composure...

2010-05-07T08:45:00.000-07:00

its the truth isnt it? i dont have a say in any of this.

maybe i should have gone out and stayed up late as usual.

i sure didnt want to heart that. oh well.

answer: wait

2010-05-02T19:24:00.000-07:00

helloooooo world (of blogger)

i've been neglecting you again. haha, guilttrip.

well im on (or trying to be) on a hiatus. Trust me, it isnt easy for

a fb, twitter, tumblr, msn addict like me :/

im making use of the long weekends, staying up as late

as possible. My latest timing to knock off was...5am.

i know right. you can slap the 'no life' label

on my head right now if you please.

I've also found the perfect subsitute for my breakfast,

(havent been eating breakfast and my mum worries for me.)

Answer: CHOCOLATE.

Seriously, i just cant eat a meal anymore. But give me chocolate

anytime and i'll devour it in minutes and be contented till lunch.

things regarding my recent post; im glad we had that talk and

cleared things up. I strongly agree its the only best option we have.

It wont be easy of course, but i just have a feeling that everything will be alright.

And for now, i'll just let it be and see what happend.

You did something really good to me that day,

You made me realize that theres something

good to look forward to in the future.

on a slightly less melodramatic note.

THINGS THAT HAPPENED THIS WEEK:

i passed my 2.4 (omg) : if you didnt know, i was never good at PE, running, or anything that requires your body to move. So, this is pretty much a big thing for me. And i happen to pass on my first try too! (chey) ok enough gloating. I'd like to thank Rong Pei for being soo patient/tolorant with me, though i know he was forced to encourage us to run. We were literally arguring because i'd keep stopping when he'd ask me to run and i'd say "ok after that tree". Heh, just goes to show how useless and lazy i am ;p
i might/or not be moving house. nows a bad time to move though, and i bet im the only one against it (temporarily) Anyway no worries, i have a feeling theres little chance of our house getting sold off. I mean look at its state, after years of holding up the madness of a chaotic household. Also, we dont seem to put much effort in sprucing it up when people come over to view. And i dont know why im the only one bothered by it when im the one against moving in the first place >.>
I pity the teacher who's going to mark my chinese essay yessss, exams have finally dawned upon us. Anyway i found it slightly amusing writing my chinese essay, half the time i didnt even know what the heck i was writting. I copied off words from the dictionary, and i'd get excited when i found a word i did happen to understand. Like ben's chinese name, and CHAO-KE-LI. hahaha (y) and i enjoyed writting my english essays as well. I dont know i enjoy writting. I also enjoyed the situational writting question (; HEHEHEEEEEE.
somethings wrong with my appetite. like i said, i cant eat breakfast anymore. But on friday omg i felt as if i was back to my original-glutton self. After the ILC meeting we trooped to PS to eat. We all ended up buying different kinds of food, takoyaki, macs, carls jr and we had a mini potluck-fest. Yeap i stole fries again (: so im back to my hungry fry stealing self. haha hi!
Aaaand happy labour day. thank god for the extra day off-school. Since i've been staying up late almost every night, i need to catch up on some lost sleep. After this short break, the next holiday we'll have will be in june, but im not looking forward to that at all. Its my first time , seeing myself not looking forward to the holidays. Yeah i dont know, i just predict its going to be a pretty stress/tough/rushed month. I dont even plan to celebrate 2nd June cos i'm betting on my ample supply of poptarts that i'll be spending it at school. Hohum.

aight, thats my (super long) update. its been ahwhile!

soo blessed

2010-04-18T07:02:00.000-07:00

soo blessed, i cant contain it, soo much you gotta give it away.

omgosh, i've been neglecting my blogger account.

haha well alot has happened. alot.

i went for another awesome ILC - it might be my last till after my shitty o levels come to a close but im glad God made my last the best (: Baguio is such a nice place to visit, plus i loved the crazy weather (cold to death at night, and burning as hell during the day.) Although, our schedule was hectic and abit rushed, although we didnt get much free time ; We all got to focus more, we all got to attend at least one workshop and even though our time was rushed, we still got to bond with the people we werent soo close to. Whoo, van J!!! Fireworks, the crosses, experiencing something new and soo much more. It felt like God was on a mission to make my last ilc one of the best and something to remember forever (:
its over - honestly, i saw it coming. but i thought i could fix it, and honestly, i guess it was mostly my fault. When deimi asked what did i do, i replied "nothing" and thats the worst, because thats just it, i did nothing to help fix it. Right now im still trying to forget , trust me i could totally be ok with it at one point and the second later i could be be breaking down in the most random-est times just remembering.
my parents are back from pinas - you didnt know they left? haha, well their back now. And law and order are finally brought back to this chaotic house.
omg, school is giving me such a crappy time - another reason to study in pinas, but im not entirely sure if i should. Poly here sounds facinating, if i get into the course of my choice that is. Which i bet isnt going to happen.
liann's birthday - it was great seeing the yfcs again, farah, indra, deimi and pris came too and surprisingly, for a group with different people, they all got along well.
omg - i am soo tired right now, practice today and another one on friday before the cfc anniversary.
and i am craving for yogurt - and coldrock! omg pat.n! whens our next trip to somerset for ice cream??

thats probably it, not much to update.

2010-04-03T17:21:00.000-07:00

looking through old posts.

and i miss Batam! damn :/ it was that fun.

anyway GB meeting was good,

didnt do drills that day. Good Friday(saturday?)

celebrations, we were one of the few UG's who

turned up in school but thats ok.

funny isnt it? BB and GB only turned up

and they are the christian groups.

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

OK im not against anything. Wouldnt want

another dirty spat now would we c:

Like i said,the celebration was

goooood. We played games.

(MARCO-POLO)

a game i clearly remember playing in primary school.

but we more pro one my primary school c:

we did it in the bus! *shows glee loser sign*

then we watched a movie and ate lotsa nice

food! haha thank you Lina, Samantha and Celestine

for the wonderful celebration and chocolate eggs/rabbits!

and

HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE!

2010-04-01T21:12:00.000-07:00

“Only when you have no fear, are you free.”

- V for Vendetta (film)

happy good friday.

And happy birthday ma! but you're

all the way in some island in philippines :/ oh well.

No meat for today, so its seafood

in the menu till tomorrow. I plan to spend the

whole day lazing around and snuggle in

my bed reading manga. Total bliss.

I WISH CIEL WAS A GIRL.

but if he was, thats one less guy

to obsess over :/ hmm...

(is that a good or bad thing?)

2010-03-30T08:35:00.000-07:00

OH GOOD LORD.

im getting soo caught up....in anime/manga.

And i feel like a sec 1 all over again. Like seriously.

I actually completed 127 chapters in three days.

zomg. Im a maniac i tell you.

so lets just say, im going to be blanking out

on reality for a wee bit and i will be

escaping to the world of manga!

with cheesy plots, cute guys (homg.) and where

the unimaginable becomes possible.

2010-03-26T06:08:00.000-07:00

i am not bound to win, but i am bound to be true.

I am not bound to succeed,

but i am bound to live up to what light i have.

-Abraham Lincoln.

2010-03-20T18:53:00.000-07:00

"Be not afraid of greatness. Some are born great,

some achieve greatness, and others

have greatness thrust upon them."

- William Shakespeare

2010-03-20T06:35:00.001-07:00

2010-03-19T00:12:00.000-07:00

this is exactly what im talking about:

{empowering}

JB was stupendous (: i cant say we did some bonding.

only with a few good people from my class

like siti. Bonded with aza and ayuni too!

I wont say anything else thats liable to spark off issues

but if anyone was wondering why i was getting

soo worked up with the issues in my class for the past few months.

lunch WAS A CLEAR/PERFECT/OBVIOUS EXAMPLE.

on a slightly cherry note:

i had lots of fun with siti, aza and ayuni (: and

other sets of random people we came across.

maybe it wasnt meant to bond with your class alone.

(pfft)

maybe it was meant to spend more time with others

people, you dont really spend time with.

2 trips down, one more too go and that PHILIPPINES.

2010-03-14T18:15:00.000-07:00

im baa-aack from BATAM!

when deimi asked what i did, i replied "we chased chickens" :p

ok, but in truth we helped make living conditions

in a rural orphanage slightly better! we managed to

complete one filtration drum, a pavement, and mosquito nettings

for the windows all in one day! :D

i learnt alot of valuable things of course, like how we shouldnt

take things for granted. you should see the orphanage we visited.

it was a far cry from whatever we have here in SG.

Limited electricity and no clean water! which was why

a filtration system was needed.

we bonded as well with the other UG's, it was fun

working with BB and NPCC and knowing more people.

My bunkmates were a-w-e-s-o-m-e!!!

the campire sealed it when we got together and did our skits.

the last day was spent shopping, hehehe, but i only

bought a t-shirt. And spent the rest on A&W (:

on the ferry going back to SG, we spent most

of our time on the top deck (see above picture)

and it was great with the wind against our faces!

TITANIC MOMENT!

so yeah when i got back, my mood somehow shifted abit.

but when i remember the awesome time i had,

i confirmed with myself that i would never have traded

the days spent in BATAM for the world!!!!!

Pictures up soon!

2010-03-11T06:47:00.000-08:00

BATAM TRIP TOMMOROW!!!

excited? very c: and i've just about done packing.

and i only have one bag...

...

is that a bad thing?? nvm.

i waaant Vans! i saw a pair in a magazine but i had no

idea what type of shoe it was -.- i shall hunt for

a noice looking pair before ILC or the trip to JB.

oh and i got my denim jacket now (: thanks to priscillaaaaaa. yay.

lol alrigtht im off, YAY BATAM!

soo blessed.

2010-03-06T18:17:00.000-08:00

"soo blessed, i cant contain it. soo much you gotta give it away"

- Hillsong

so i have to say, CO was....unbelievable (:

alot of people turned up! haha soo proud of those who did.

and yeah, i was super super nervouse before

my talk. i didnt eat yeah, but i really didnt want to

eat! And everyone got worried pushing

their food to me. haha sorry people.

i just hope my talk reached out to at least 1-2 people that day,

i dont think i shared enough real life

experiences and jokes. hehe, oh well, i will learn.

its a good start i hope. and i have to give credit to my dad

for the awesome slides! thaank you!

and also kuya edmar and ate carissa for giving

me the chance to talk, i hope i'll learn from this and do better

next time round! and thank you God! May he be praised (:

Lj treated us to jolly shandy after that,

then we headed to his place for alexis's BBQ. going there

and the first half of the bbq was great i guess, we got pwn-ed by

the little kids on the swing, got high, and played some

retarded game with the others till they left for soccer.

but after that i was shag-ed out. so we left early. I had

a serious talk with pris and yeah...im just going to stay positive

and keep praying for everyone.

once again, may God be praised!

2010-03-05T06:52:00.000-08:00

bada-bing bam boom!

omg, im nervous :/ even after all those comforting words

from ate carissa and pat.n, i cant seem to

absorb all theese words. omgomgomgomgomgomg

god, please help me.

2010-03-04T05:38:00.000-08:00

hmm...i find this very amusant.

its like watching a circus.

and you are the freakshow.

with always something to show the audience.

who apluad, oh yes they do,

but in their minds they are thinking

"boy am i glad im not her."

2010-03-03T06:23:00.000-08:00

"The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected."

-Nicholas Sparks

everything has finally cooled down,

things are finally ok between us (: and i have been noticing

her like a grain of salt. I'm perfectly fine if she

mooches around every person she can get her hands on.

im just glad im finally beyond all the drama.

omg, i feel like skipping in utter joy! the only

thing in my mind right now is the Covanant Orientaion.

the least important ones are the tests...

and overdue homework...i owe

Dont mind me, it'll come back knocking my head once

i get my yfc schedule straight. i suspect its gonna be

all schoolschoolschool after that.

So freakin' let me run free for a tad bit before i subside to torture.

oh, and look! i have a new friend (:

2010-02-28T06:02:00.000-08:00

"an arrow can only be shot by pulling it backwards.

so when life is dragging you back with difficulties,

it means that’s gonna launch you into something great."

2010-02-27T16:58:00.000-08:00

mama: yes yes, smile for mama!

me: *tilts head*

*smiles!!*

so yeah, i'm pretty much ok now. with what you ask? well, i don't know :/

Went out for dinner yesterday with mah family , homg i finally tried out

Manhattan Fish Market! Its a must try, i didn't
think i'd like it at first, because the staff were pushy

and they didnt have my pasta :/ but when i tried their

'flaming platter for two' ahh, total bliss!

on the way home they started sharing stories and

there was this story about a Silversmith, well i wasnt listening

but my dad explained it again and ended off with this:

"God will not bear us with challenges you cannot handle"

hmm, or something like that, i cant seem to recall :/

it just goes to show, that all of us are strong enough to handle

our daily challenges, because God would never bear

you with something far beyond your limitations.

2010-02-25T04:02:00.000-08:00

i almost lost it during EBS today...

see, i was finishing up on my tally table when suddenly

the computer screen went blank. I freaked out of course and

started typing randomly, then realised it shut down.

cos teacher freakin' stepped on the computer's

cable :/ he didn't even know what was going on either.

some teacher eh. i was on the verge of cursing out loud.

during break, i got a waffle after much begging

with priscilla. and as i was going back grinning in spite of

myself, something hit me and my smile disappeared.

urgh.

after practice, i got an elmo balloon! it was purty.

but then, we found out that our CCA

(in attempt to make our life a misery) is making us ushers

for the concert, claiming theres little people helping. OMG, helllo?

what about the sec ones / twos and three?

seriously.........no comment.

whats the point of raising your hopes up high,

when they all come crashing back down?

2010-02-22T07:27:00.000-08:00

question: So then, how do we defeat our 'giants'?

answer: keep your gaze on God and God alone,

then pick up your stones and aim

my mind has been made up more that ever.

i dont even care whatever the income.

like i said, i wont give up on this class.

which is why im contributing by giving chances to

others liable as better leaders.

And no, i will not be affected with what

people might say. Let them

think of me as a coward/weak minded

person for all i care. Who are they to judge?

i have no time for another round of drama this year,

no more games. its time to concentrate.

2010-02-22T07:04:00.000-08:00

which glass are you?

(got this from mig's tumblr)

like how a bee attracts to honey.

2010-02-20T03:53:00.000-08:00

i was going to delete my entry about my class.

but...you know what? i wont. this is me speaking out. like the qoute,

"the dreamer gets punished most, by the truth they say"

im not going to be afraid by whatever she does,

no matter if she posts whatever i type in her blog to showcase

to the entire world. (thats what she's known for anyway.)

im not going to be afraid anymore with voicing out my feelings.

so heres the deal, who ever (except her)

who got hurt over what i said, i apologise. There are

still some people in there who tries their best, and

of course i can see that. No one is perfect.

i am just not that strong enough to handle

all the drama, i mean come on, everyone knows im weak

and i dont have the heart to scold people

(unless they go too far of course).

i am also sorry for the racism remark i wrote

(though she has no right either, for she should know what she called them last year)

actually, i guess i went too far on that note. and again im sorry.

they are just like me actually, a foreighner, usually looked

down upon. and sometimes i see them trying their best.

i wont give up on this class, i wont give up either voicing

out my opinion when theres a need too.

but on monday, i am going to make a big decision.

and it will take alot of pondering over.

i pray it will be for the best.

2010-02-20T03:36:00.000-08:00

so, let me get this straight.

YOU pointed me out to teacher to be nominated

as the freakin' class chairman on the first day of school.

and then when I loose my temper

(oh im not supposed to? *gasp*)

YOU think you can use this against me?

my dear child, you dont need to remind me

that im not a good chairman, i knew that

very well since i was in freakin' SEC 1.

you know very well i never wanted this position.

so in truth you are gaining nothing from whatever you're doing.

Cant you register this in your mind? Cant you just

let go and accept? You leech off people, cling on to them,

but still treat them like dirt, what kind of 'best-friend'

believes in a hot-and-cold relationship.

one day friends, the next day enemies.

i'd prefer a stable relationship, thank you.

im sorry, yet im not.

im sorry for you, not for me.

and need i remind you, your spamming doesnt

affect me at all. because now i truly know whos the

one with the issues, and it surely aint me.

2010-02-18T03:03:00.000-08:00

i miss a lot people, i had this sudden urge to tell them too. so yeah,

if you see my super random post on your FB wall, you know

i missed you terribly! Ezekiel you're the only exception cos

i saw you today, and cos you're super cute ^.^

well today was exhausting, kept gritting my

teeth during the first three periods,

urgh whatever. seriously, i cant care less

about something as trival as this now.

i'll let you talk, then we'll see who's the one with issues.

2010-02-16T02:17:00.000-08:00

"Slow down, you crazy child…You’ve got so much do to,

and only so many hours in a day… Slow down, you're doing fine.

You can’t be everything you want to be before your time."

-Billy Joel, Vienna

2010-02-14T15:48:00.000-08:00

have you seen my 'mad-side' as in: extreme na talaga?

consider yourself one of the lucky few. i dont express it on a daily basis, and i hate having to let it out. its such a tiring job dont you agree? but once people hit a nerve, oh yes you better watch out, i wont come straight to your face and scream (sorry i have this thing called dignity?) i have my own way of fending myself off. and i detest screaming :-/

so yes, alot of people have come close to hitting the nerve, i choose though to keep it all in. Some things in life are'nt worth fighting for, thats my stanza. My class is not worth fighting for.

do you know...each day before assembly i follow my friends to their class, when the bell rings and its time for people to go back to their own classes, my heart literally sinks. I hate my cursed class. Its clique-ish, it has no idea what teamwork means, and half the batch doesnt give a damn about anyone else, its every man for himself in this class oh yes. And im not being racist but 99.9 percent of the class in chinese, chinese as in those from china, those who are rich, those who dont give a damn but themselves in the class, those who cant care less if our class is late, those who cant care less if our class always falls behind. Im not a racist to ask this but, what the hell are you doing here anyway?

and oh it doesnt end there, theres a funny side to this. you like jokes right? the funny part is...i am the class chairman, of these godforsaken class. the freakin' class chairman. Now go laugh, im small (weak as you call it) and no one in the right mind would listen to such a person like me. And oh heres another funny part! I didnt choose for this position, I was elected for this! ISNT THAT JUST THE FUNNIEST THING. Of course i wasnt chosen due to popularity, of course i wasnt chosen because i have the 'strength, leadsership and whatnot' i know i dont have any of that.

what do they think of me, stupid? i know they picked me, because i am weak to them, there isnt a single person in the class who they'll listen to. Im small, no sense of leadership and cannot lead, they are very well of that and use it to their own advantage.

"oh i'll just take the class key from you and go up..."
"what can she do? i'll just make as much noise as i want"
"who is she to boss me around? she's soo small"
"She'll agree to anything"
"She cant voice out her opinion, lets just decide by ourselves"

they overpower me,

their lack of unity drives me up the wall. these people are really funny, nobody at all listens to what i have to say, and when i do, theres always someone to back it up. So what do i hold, just the keys? no wait i dont even hold the keys, half the class takes the key from me so i dont hold them. The title? yes, thats just about the only thing i hold the title : CLASS CHAIRMAN. the rest holds the keys, power to decide and voice of opinion.

im just the person with the title.

>:-(

2010-02-06T19:15:00.001-08:00

NO SUCH THING AS PRIVACY THESE DAYS.

tied down

2010-01-26T04:17:00.001-08:00

" baby, its time to cut some strings..."

you dont need to know why (pfft,kepo)

im going to sketch this out later.

STOP LOOK , LISTEN.

2010-01-26T03:57:00.000-08:00

"IN ORDER FOR OTHERS TO CHANGE

YOU MUST CHANGE YOUSELF."

i dont know what to say.

heck i dont even have to words to express what im

feeling about everything now. because i dont feel anything.

oh yay mum got me fruits.

sorry

2010-01-12T05:20:00.001-08:00

when i was young, there was this friend i had.

her name was melissa. we were best friends. i thought we were

going to remain the same forever. life was good back then.

then a time came when i got annoyed with melisa for

no apparant reason. probably it was because

we always stuck together and i got tired of her

sticking with me all the time. so one day,

just for kicks, i avoided her and hid away from her.

i found a new aquaintance who helped hid me.

she soon found out, and got hurt, my other friend

bodly came up to me and demanded an explaination to why i left.

when i didnt answer, she got pissed and scolded me

for denying our friendship with melissa.

we werent friends anymore after that.

i got hurt of course, i felt that i was treated unfairly.

i cried alot too. "it was just a joke, i didnt mean it." i'd say

to myself. they were the ones who need to apologise.

in the end, both parties did not apologise, probably because,

(as youngsters) we still had our dignity and

waited for the other one to own up.

today i realised how much i DID hurt her. i did say sorry to

my other friend but not melissa due to the lact of contact.

i realised that i was soo caught up with my own

sadness i forgot that melissa's must have been more great than

my own. i had hurt her when she did no wrong.

and up until now, i realize, and i regret.

i never got to say sorry.

this was in primary school. and now

its happening all over again.

never take friendship for granted, no matter what happens.

value it because there will come a time when you

do loose it, and if you hold on to your dignity. it will be too late.

so, even though im not sure if this will help but

im sorry debbie. i really am.

too fast

2010-01-10T00:49:00.000-08:00

wowza, havent been updating again. haha.

so yeah , 2010 has not been kind to me.

i barely survived the first week of school. barely.

sec one cca open house yesterday.

was exhausting . but i actually enjoyed the fancy drills.

yes i know right. i just did. not sure if there will be

people who will join us , as i see it, our cca is probably

looked down by the rest. yeah the irony.

after that, we had a mini celebration for ms.hor

oh yay cake. screamed like nobodys buisness cos hey,

the drama people had their share for that too.

yeap thats highschool. undisputed battles 24/7

2010

2010-01-03T04:12:00.000-08:00

ZOMG ITS 2010, HAPPY NEW YEAR!

this will take some time getting used to. and school starts

tomorrow. im seriously not ready for sec 4 yet.

OKAY. i gotta pack. ciao.

un

2009-12-24T23:40:00.000-08:00

ok pictures from the Noche Buena are lagging

pfft...screw facebook. anyway i need to pack. like now.

road trip to Malacca first thing tomorrow morning. It wont be the

same like going to pinas but still, i shall enjoy myself (:

hmm shopping? some hopes.

merry christmas!

2009-12-24T08:20:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!

may we give thanks to all the blessings God has given us.

may we concentrate on jesus's birthday

and nothing else. have a blessed christmas all!

victorious

2009-12-23T08:06:00.000-08:00

i've went for all the nine simbang gabi (: hohoho so proud of

myself, not bragging and all. im just very happy.

even though i felt lethargic even though i had a slight fever,

i was able to go for todays last mass.

before that ,denise and pat.n came over to bake

gingerbread cookies! awesum. the yfcs loved it and devoured

the batch we brought today in minutes.

picture taking madness ensures after that,

this is the only 'decent' one i can find , heheh.

oh my, gulay christmas is comming!

choke

2009-12-19T11:05:00.000-08:00

3am, i cant sleep.

solitude

2009-12-18T09:15:00.001-08:00

new mango top from my mom O:

just look at my spastic face.

aaanyway, simbang gabi today at st.vincent de paul , was stuck at the

room-for-noisy-brats again so i went out by myself to listen to fathers homily

in peace.

bumped into migs, mark, john and patrick in the middle of the mass,

and then met up with the other yfcs soon after. impromptu? haha,

had dinner with them, we had this nice, [cafe-looking] empty room all to ourselves!

hope i can go for all the masses, and its not because of the porridge.

fkarma

2009-12-14T08:02:00.000-08:00

i'm actually not looking forward to christmas this year.
probably because im not expecting anything.

i dont like raising my hopes up when in the end,
they all come crashing back down.

oh how dandy my life is ;D

CFC ADVENT PARTY

2009-12-13T07:42:00.000-08:00

had truckloads of fun.

though the dance was a little bit screwed, we survived.

josh brought in a bushy hair wig and i've been facinated with it

ever since. where in the world can i get one?!

after the party, we all headed to kayla's place, since it

was the nearest house possible. played cards, mafia and tabbo.

mafia was hilarious, so was tabbo :D

i wish i could elaborate more about my awesome day today but

i dont have the chim vocab. so i stop here. wee. bye.

oh and welcome back deimi!

tired

2009-12-09T12:54:00.000-08:00

havent been posting here lately.

been mostly active on tumblr, yeah ironic?

anyway, lots have happened.

dont want to elaborate much, cos im pretty

much tired. but it was fun (: praise workshop

on monday, west unit meeting today.

[ping pong dance!]

and friday is our final dance practice

before the real thing on sunday.

gosh. i am soo tired.

and i am gettng fatter!

im soo over it.

2009-12-06T03:37:00.000-08:00

ok we went to st. vincent de paul again for mass....

oh god, we really have to wake up early, either that or OLSS

better switch back the mass time to 6pm

YFC CHRISTMAS PARTY YESTERDAY

it. was . awesum .

had our dance practice first and then after that

we started getting ready , gosh everyone

looks soo damn gorgeous.

people i havent seen i ages were present (like shane!)

and some people i dont know at all...

haha i just say HI! im very very socialble ok ;D

oh and the award ceremony was weird.

poor john john, he should have won! his last dance

was just too good for words. but yeah

give chance to the young un's

danced the night away like loons, haha

i think we all went crazy that night.

praise workshop tmr. i cant wait! this just keeps getting better.

ties

2009-12-02T08:51:00.000-08:00

define : forgiveness

1. act of forgiving; state of being forgiven.
2. disposition or willingness to forgive.

bullshit. that doesnt help much.

what does it take to forgive? how fast are we able

to forgive the people who hurt us?

how ready are we to accept their flaws?

and most importantly,

how do we forget?

ties

2009-12-02T00:59:00.000-08:00

GROW UP DYLAN FALSADO. JUST GROW UP.

to say the truth, i was never proud to be

your sister, its more of a curse than a blessing.

you go around thinking your always right,

insult my friends (their looks, race, etc) and pry into

my private life. seriously is there anything else you need to

ruin? its no wonder mic hates your guts, he cant handle babies.

your not a bundle of goodness yourself.

your just one helluva fat BRAT bursting with ego.

so, on behalf of everyone you've hurt and annoyed

with your actions and harsh words:

GROW UP

seriously, why do i even bother trying to

strengthen this hopeless brother-sister relationship =.=

nostalgia

2009-11-29T07:00:00.000-08:00

"when i see him again, i am just right back to where i was before."

had mass at St Vincent De Paul with the family, and thanks

to Liann we were kept in the room for the noisy brats,

couldnt concentrate with father's sermon at all -_-

bumped into some old family friends after and we had dinner

at their house. urrgh. nostalgia moment.

WHYY?!

2009-11-28T21:06:00.000-08:00

if only it was that easy.

COMPARISON

2009-11-28T04:54:00.000-08:00

IM TIRED AS HELL.

been going out for two days straight,

and for such a nice, home-y person like me

i found it very very exhausting!

yfc hh planning for 2010 yesterday.

brainstormed some awesome ideas and spent some quality

time with denise and ate iris! After that, went

to pat.n's for the movie-marathon with

the newbies, though only a few turned up we still had

fun (: had pizza and mannaged to watch enough horror

movies to pacify ourselves for what...a month?

reached home at 1am.

argh, major headache now -_-

a basketball attacked me while playing with

the guys after the dance practice at lj's

regret?

2009-11-25T08:10:00.000-08:00

"if i had wings i would fly, your all that i need, you are. and if the world

caved in around me, to you i still hold on. cos you're all i ever need."

im sorry for losing it just now, i was angry at everyone.

angry at myself.i felt like a total disapointment.

i felt that i can never handle things right, everything

in my life just has to be messed up.

you really are what i need right now. to hold on.

food!

2009-11-24T07:10:00.000-08:00

FOOD! FOOD! MORE FOOD!

got this from our uncle who recently visited us from manila,

the Ensaymada from Goldilocks is a must-try!

got this from the philippines as well (:

TODAY:

did scrapbooking with samantha (:

its been ages since i did! imma update my scrapbook

during the holidays instead of losing on fb games.

i finally bought my checkered shirt, got this when i
went out with pat.n and priscilla. Was supposed to go to a flea-

market but it wasnt there! So we had coffee at a cafe, in

order to use their computer to find flea markets.

We took ages to get to Chinatown, in the end

the flea-market was a crappy one -_-

but i found my shirt! so yey.

After that we walked around and got lost a

zillion times before catching the right bus to Orchard.

Went to Ion and we splurged at diva, i bought

a mood ring just to get em' Fox vouchers!

hey its Fox :-p

YAY , GETTING LOST IS FUNFUNFUN!

ACT YOUR AGE.

2009-11-19T08:07:00.000-08:00

i do not like watching kids running around

thinking their old enough to do whatever

crap there is. its funny, yet irritating.

then i realize that i have my own

life to probe about. so i let this people

be and they'll learn the hard way.

eventually.

happy food

2009-11-16T21:32:00.001-08:00

managed to smuggle some food back home from my cat class

party. weee! im a terribly happy girl ^.^

CHOCLAIRS O: in TUBE FORM.

*stares at its awesome-ness*

i dont like the new Mamee packet ;-/

theres no more seasoning!

this i found in the kitchen cupboard

SWISS ROLLS! MUST...SAVE....FROM....HUNGRY BROTHER!

live like your dying

2009-11-03T05:11:00.001-08:00

i've been cut for camp. sigh.

kinda saw it comming, but there

was still that bit of hope

that i'd be serving.

oh well. stuff happens.

sec 4 next year.

and its giving me goosebumps

urgh. N levels N levels.

i feel myself slipping away ):

no pushed is the right word.

P-U-S-H-E-D

im going to isolate myself

from the world till this

madness resides.

"i dont wanna say [wish i was there]"

ciao

2009-10-28T06:38:00.000-07:00

i've moved.

to tumblr

dont bother re-linking me though

i'll still be posting here

once in a while when i feel like it.

so keep my old link.

xoxo

make every second last.

2009-10-25T05:27:00.000-07:00

i've had an awesome weekend!

gnignignignignignignignignigni...

so yesterday was yc training.

it was the same thing we had at june.

yes, there was the infamous yfc mock camp.

it was worse this time round. way worse.

but it sure was a good refresher.

after the training, we headed to shane's

place for gni! haha but first we stopped by

whitesands to stock up on happy food.

[chips,chocs and cookies!]

in all, gni was simply awesome.

we gossiped, we laughed, and they tied me up

with tape! we also made this music video,

which i screwed up cos i coughed and fell back...

after much fun we flopped on our beds at 4

thank you pat.n and shane for everything.

you guys actually taught me alot througout.

though you never realised, but you did.

also...thank you for going

all the way to yishun for mass with me!!!

no one could have any better friends <3

its over.

2009-10-20T00:39:00.000-07:00

omg the video is here, its freakin here! these people are seriously awesome. its a f.o.b mixtape so its kinda techno. but im addicted! i dont know why. i loved the song, which was aired last year and now im loving the video which just came out on youtube last month. gah, i am officially hooked.

['take my hand' - the cab ft cassadee from hey monday.]

):

2009-10-19T08:18:00.000-07:00

i need to accept
i need to understand
i need to let go.

"Better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all" -st. augustine

give me a rewind and make is snappy

2009-10-15T06:17:00.001-07:00

i am back

my hiatus is over. so hi noobs.

still, i got a helluva stuff to do

[no rest for the wicked ,it seems]

exams are over and done with.

but ohhmyfreeeakinakukugod i have a

feeling i'll either make a bare pass,

or retain sec 3.

the good news is...

i could be a tall sec 3 :) woot!

sigh.

2009-09-18T04:41:00.000-07:00

"everybodys changing and i dont know why..."
-keane

thou shall not fall into temptation.

thou shall simply sit back and

watch the chaos unfold.

and thou is not updating. bye!

bitter heart

2009-09-04T06:56:00.000-07:00

im wasting time.

screw this shit! im doomed.

i wasted time, i wasted

dreams, i wasted trying.

and what happens?

love/shit happens.

composure...

2009-08-29T07:39:00.000-07:00

Marina Barrage is a good

place to escape, from...everything.

took denise kristen natayla out

to celebrate an early 16th bday

along with pat.n and patrick!

had truckloads of fun and

managed to escape from reality

for just a little while...

anyway, t'was awesome.

had doughnuts and sandwhiches

for lunch and then we got

hyper, running 'round the grass

trying to make our balloons fly.

At night we stargaze-ed,

took alot of random pictures,

and threw wishes into the sea.

gossip,laughter,random moments...

just like the good old times!

sigh, its fun to hang out

with the right people :)

thanks everyone! today was

just what i needed.

and happy sweet 16th denise!

ILY.ILY.ILY.ILY.

enjoy my present ;)

happy food

2009-08-22T08:17:00.000-07:00

credits to capt.Benji...

Yes, i ate this today at lina's

house.Cambodian food is awesome.

play it back in rewind

2009-08-16T05:19:00.000-07:00

i'll get this over and done with.

overdue post-ing is not good.

friday, 14th
Well the first half of the day

sucked. After that was my

dad's party, had a mass-chat

session in msn with shane,

pat.n,nerissa,deimi,priscilla,

niel,lj,seann and brian.

SUPER FUN :)

saturday, 15th

omg i missed gb...

im soo sorry! 1000x im getting

detention again. obviously.

Went for lj's bbq at 4 ,

their house is freakin' huge.

and max bit me -.- watched the

guys play basketball and we

threw lj into the pool. haha!

and since it was at kembangan...

i reached home at 12am x__x

sunday, 16th

went for unit meeting with pris,

didnt eat much. haha i kept singing

the 'diet' song. watched some

filipino horror. i had my trusty

pillow with me at all times!

And the guys screamed like girls.

wth?

BOOM BOOM SHAKE SHAKE X)

ok i shall end here.

pre-monday blues comming along.

and my homework calls D:

"crazy on a sunday night..."

2009-08-10T04:25:00.000-07:00

yfc fellowship was awesome.

Though i bet we werent exactly

interested in the NDP :p

haha. cool fireworks though.

and some bloody racist scolded

us for making noise and

lightning up our sparklers.

"think your country issnt?!"

the old hag said -.-

(pssh, multi-racial my foot)

anyway it was still fun :)

took tons of pictures and spent

the day talking, singing along

to the guitar, and listening to

one of josh's weird rants...

Unit meeting next week.

hopefully im A-O-K by then.

always 2nd best

2009-08-07T06:37:00.000-07:00

national day celebration

not sure how to sum it up,

yea it was fun, but the thoughts

keep flooding my head -.-

and i wore a kebaya!

next year wear chongsam(?).

haha.next next year maria clara.

after that , had lunch with

deimi and pris at Seoul Garden,

we ate ALOT. like omg im still

full. we're trying out Manhathan

Fish Market next time ;)

right, im off. going sentosa tmr.

Make Your Momma Proud

2009-08-02T09:18:00.000-07:00

[eye to eye me meet, no words at all.]

i'm missing DC like mad.

e-night was super fun!

we had pizza for dinner

and i snagged 3 slices.

[LOL glutton-na-tor]

went for church today,

then to a BBQ cos it was

yssa's 14th bday. pictures

up soon.i hope.

shit 2.4 retake tomorrow.

seriously, what.the.hell?!

if i had the chance,

i'd kick his bloody shins.

he's not the only one with such

'colourful' language here :)

i must go, ciao!

OMG

2009-07-31T07:26:00.000-07:00

OMG.

just found someting to obsess

over, other than taylor lautner...

its Miniture food!

[made from polymer clay]

isnt it just awesome?

but, sadly...

im not going to raise my hopes for this.

i need the expensive classes.
i need the expensive materials.
i need the time and dedication.
i need to be brimming with talent.

OH THE IRONY.

its awfully sad to see dreams die...

CHEENAaaaa..a.a

2009-07-24T06:28:00.000-07:00

[oh i'm ready for it, come on bring it.]

alot of people seem to have

"PMS" this week...eh then

please isolate yourself.

we dont need the drama.

i miss the hall, and home ec,

and behold, i even miss d&t

dammit, sec 3 is borring.

i've been listening to songs

(i feel like a p6 again..)

mostly from the dudes like

Cute Is What We aim For; The

Maine; Yellowcard; Vertical

Horizon and COBRA STARSHIP :D

honestly,

the senseless meanings

actually make sense.

HAHA. sense.

gushing is BAD

2009-07-18T06:28:00.000-07:00

[so exaggerate and t-t-t-t-trick me]

i am CURED. hurraah.

though parental units are

considering my isolation...

number of days sick: 1

days to "recover" : 4

i am now ready to face the

land of the living yarr!

...

ANYWAY! i got my new converse.

nice yes?

amazing-ly i was free to

roam around with real people

today, ahh real people.

how nice...

the wonders isolation can do to you...

doosh

2009-07-16T23:31:00.000-07:00

IM UPDATING WHEN SOMETHING

INTERESTING HAPPENS TO ME!

like if a monkey runs away with

my banana-yellow coloured socks.

or something...

arse, get well soon

2009-07-12T06:53:00.000-07:00

"and then we'll do it all again...."

SIGH. love, life, etc...

such difficult topics to decode.

and the only way to figure em' out

is by going through it yourself.

its hopeless for me though,

its like i expect the answers to be

handed to me in a silver platter

or something. haha.

ANYWAY!

dear you, i missed you ok.

i dont know how,i just did. guess

im getting more bolder showing my

feelings. so get well soon. im

just abit worried i guess

probably paranoid...

waterguns

2009-07-09T05:52:00.000-07:00

[its no suprise i wont be here tommorow.]

-Daughtry

Well the weeks almost done...

i shall endure! *punches fist*

yesterday some dickheads

threw chilli paste at me.

what.the.hell. CHILLI PASTE?!

seriously...no life.

today me and deimi had a water

fight with the dudes from red

cross. we wandered over to them

and they had this box full

of these happy-meal toys.

and we found water guns...

well you know the rest :)

we went CRAZY, screaming and

running around like loons,

amazing-ly, no teacher caught us.

sigh, it was seriously fun. haha.

NOTE: water guns are lethal!

new skin,

2009-07-05T20:36:00.000-07:00

[take my hand, and we will run away...]

-The Cab.

new skin.

guess my old one was messy.

and look its red! yay, red.

SATURDAY:

out with deimi! haha.shopped abit

at NP. holy cow, its really up-

grading itself. lol. had KFC and

then bused to Sembawang to check

out Cotton On.

bought a mocha frappe! VENTI:D

*wide grin*

walked to Sun Plaza gossiping

away like aunties. haha! gossip.

Deimi showed me these vintage

dresses and they only cost..$9+

omg,super cheap YES?!

*faints*

SUNDAY:

parents ordered pizza for no

particular reason. and it was AFTER

lunch.haha.went to church at 5pm

and then off to serangoon for a

party,shane was there and we gossiped

the entire time haha, ily shane!

as of TODAY,

i shall rot at home and waste

myself away at the computer screen.

y'know , the usual :P

give up the game.

2009-07-03T03:41:00.000-07:00

[just give up the game and get into me...]

- Kelly Clarkson.

i've posted my twitter up.

follow me if you have :)

so i survived the 1st week of
school. the usual : BORRING.

went to deimi's place to karaoke but,

they had trouble setting things up.

phew...uh...i mean: darn!

( haha. juuust kidding. )

so we watched Prom night

and Housebunny instead.

ANYWAY...PICTURES!

[my 'craving' for today :D]

[endless choices...]

[setting the things up.]

[farah; stealing my food -.-]

[priscillaaaaa...]

[ :p ]

[grabbed this from farah. MINE!]

[and the last pic! lol.]

well thats about it :) had fun anyway.

will be going out with deimi dear again

tommorow. staaarbucks here we come!

buahahahahahaaa.

shit happens

2009-06-28T04:03:00.001-07:00

['Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells
you they love you, you're gonna believe them.']
15 is not complicated.....its jinxed.

well i am anyway.
hmm, school tommorow. shit. evreyone is tense. and
behold im just worried how my hair will look like =.=
i must be the only retard worrying about such things.
but hey its important ok?

OOOooo i love facebook quizes.
they sure hit the nail in the head sometimes...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Patrisha took the What "Psychiatric Disorder Do You Have?"
quiz and the result is : "Borderline Personality"

You can be extrmely impulsive and are prone to drastic
mood shifts. You may feel great- energetic and excited one
day - but without warning, the next moment you may feel
depressed and suicidal.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

well, that sure explains alot.

i took a chance, i took a shot.

2009-06-25T06:41:00.000-07:00

YESTERDAY:

movie outing with yfc. omg was soo fun!

transformers 2 is awesome.a must watch.

[venue: cathy cineleisure, orchard.]

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

haha ok. so after the movie we all went to eat at this food

court looking place, but nobody but pat.n and lj ate, i had

skittles, yay skittles. Split up after that and went for the

BBQ party with lj. Bought starbucks, crappy bottle kind.

Met jessica at the bbq and we went up to my place to use

the com, she slept over :P haha....slept at 3am. weee~

TODAY:

yfc household head meeting.

[venue: esplanade rooftop.]

-mini shopping with jess at northpoint.

-met shane at City Link, we were late.

-meeting...windy! haha.

-dinner at kfc

-gossip session with alexis and carissa *gasp.*

-HOME SWEET HOME.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

kay thats about its, my last week for june.

gah! I WANT COFFEE PLEASE....

its a start i guess...

2009-06-23T03:24:00.000-07:00

i owe two days of posts. haha. what is wrong with me???
gosh im soo lazy, i am not opting for an extension for the
holidays, im done rotting at home thanks alot. I want my
two month break durring november and december.

back to yesterday and today.....
we didnt go west coast park at all. dont ask me why,
i have no idea either. lol. we visited...farms o.O
yeap. But yeah t'was ok. I like the fish farm where we
fed the super greedy fishes, and the goat farm! where i
went crazy and went "maaaaaa" endlessly to the goats,
and they replied back :D wahahaha.

GOATS MILK IS AWESOME, i gulped down two bottles.

ok...lol. moving on to today.
bonding session with dad. where i finally (thank god)
got to buy stuff, i swear if i didnt get to spend my dough
durring the june break, i'd just about die on the spot. cos
it'll just be too much. lol. we went to bishan and i got a
new cover for my poor phone.about time! Then bought
two shorts from Cotton On and a shirt from 77th st. Hmm,
not what i expected to buy but it'll have to do i guess.

Coffe Bean after that :) yay.

haha ok im off...
catching transformers tommorow. (i hope) .

yfc amazing race

2009-06-21T07:31:00.000-07:00

omg i am soo friggin tired.
the yfc amazing race today was awesome :D
extremely tirring but awesome. hahaha super fun too!
though i still have the cramps. it really hurts, dammit.

gah. last week of june. the horror. i want to do something.
lol. yes, shopping please! Since i havent been able to do that
at all since the holidays started >.> my life is very sadd yes?
i am rotting at home. i'd rather be rotting at school than at
home. yes. my holidays sucked that much, go figure. I told
you, if it werent for YFC i'd be dying of boredom by now.

will be hitting West Cost tommorow. family bonding
again . hahah. i will take pictures. sigh at least i did
something other than yfc durring the hols....i sure hope
i can finish up whatever i want to do by this week till the
horror (school) starts. OH.AM.GEE. no more slacking. lol.

ok. im out, have to sleep early. ciao!
and to all em' dads out there....HAPPY FATHERS DAY!

gaga(?)

2009-06-18T20:08:00.000-07:00

craaap. i got overdue posts. lol. alot of things have been happening

these past few days. mostly yfc stuff :D haha. anywho, lets start.

i got like three days of posts to to make up. gah. i get lazy durring

the holidays. I'll try to make it short so all of us can be happy. lol.

TUESDAY: (june 16)

shane and pat.n came over for swimming! had lots of fun.

went hyper. alot of times. and loads of gossgip, agh! gossip is

bad, very bad. lol. nvm.went back up and devoured half a plate

of mac N cheese. Bugged people online and got some guitar

lessons from pat. heres one weird covo we had....

pat.n : ok you seriously have to trim your nails.

me: but i liiiike it long!

pat.n: try holding down this then. (the wire thingy)

me: *tries* i cant!

pat.n: why not?

me: i'll break a nail.

(silence.)

me: ok that sounds.....bimbo-tic......

pat.n: yeah...

shane : *laughs*

HAHAHA, ok im seriously weird. and hopelessly hopeless.

then some other shit happened but i wont mention it here.

i want nothing to do with whats happening with her and

her issues >.> ROAR. lol its ok, i dont hold grudges, im

retard-tolerant.

WEDNESDAY: (june 17)

YFC BBQ! i cant make this short people, sorry. so deal with it.

Reached pasir ris park at 2 plus, we were early so we sat on

the grass, sat with martin and lj. Cos the ates were talking er

*cough* stuff. lol. Then the rest came and we started. Some

of the guys played soccer and the rest just played guitar or

ate chips. I listened to the guys play. so envious. lol.

we started the bbq soon after, gah i was no help at all, if

you count standing on plastic bags helping. tried to be

useful by offerring to buy drinks with lj and martin. heheh.

brian and seann followed and i ended up being the only girl.

haha but it was fun :)

delivered back the drinks and charcoal and hung around

the with rest again, people started playing guitar and it felt

nice just sitting there and listening. Gah, i seriously have to

cut my nails if i ever want to play the guitar. After that we

finally had our bbq dinner and we made smores for afters!

chilled again on the grass after eating , evreyone was taking

pictures. Then we packed up which took a loong time and

left at 9 plus. walked to downtown east, then pasir ris int, then

to the bustop, wasnt that tired cos we were talking all the way.

Had an interesting conversation with pat.n, JR and seann about

school and the past youth camps. haha i seriously didnt know that

a woman tried to commit suicide at my camp O.o LOL thats how

naive and lost i was that time, wow.

reached khatib at 11 and waited for the last train with

the rest. reached home a few minutes before 12 and yay

wasnt questioned by parental units (: heheh.

FUNFUNFUNFUNFUNFUNFUNFUNFUNFUNFUN!

haha ok. bye.

forget it forget it forget it forget it

2009-06-14T23:29:00.000-07:00

[love is like a song, you cant forget it.]
makes amnesia sound like a pretty good option.

june PA was good :) i think i ate most of the cake.
um lol, and the photoshoot session was fun! haha.
i dont think anyones crazy over my bangs T.T
people, fret not cos im not either. gah, i probably
have to wait till it grooooows back.

im thinking again. its another bad sign. really.
thinking about certain issuses give me a headache.
well i did learn some important pointers...

1: you can forget. you just remember.
2: i never learn from my past mistakes.
3: thinking about other stuff like Taylor Lautner helps.

yay for me.